I lie still as the sun peeps through. He says, “Good morning my dear. I’ve been waiting for you.” My eyes turn away and I shimmy under the sheets. I’m sorry to say, I’m not ready to face the day. I do not wish to see.
“The cradle rocks above an abyss, and common sense tells us that our existence is but a brief crack of light between two eternities of darkness.”
—Vladimir Nabokov, Speak, Memory
So I said, “We have options. Some of which involve only two hands, left and right.”
He didn’t understand, so I began to explain.
"My dear, you are a passing of time. An experiment so to speak. We have now or later, but I’ll let you decide that. Not forever. It doesn’t exist with you."
His response, “But a forever with you is all I ask, only if you’d give me a chance.”
"I’ve given the chance for fair game, though the thought of it is ridiculous. I have rules for the trade and you’ve broken all but one. To stay would be a suicide."
He continues the playing, but I cease to exist, I dare not burn in my flames. Another is in play you see, and the pawn is valuable.
So this game we play is of riddles and wit. I rush through the steps till I finally quit. This is not the game I would enjoy to play.
Truth be told, I’m waiting for the other that exists.
Dragonfly helmet, made in Japan in the 17th century (source).
High-ranking lords began to embellish their helmets with sculptural forms so that they could be visually located on the battlefield. Exotic helmets (kawari kabuto) also allowed leaders to choose symbolic motifs for their helmets that reflected some aspect of their personality or that of their collective battalions. This helmet is shaped like a giant dragonfly. In Japan, the dragonfly is symbolic of focused endeavor and vigilance because of its manner of moving up, down and sideways while continuing to face forward. In addition, in ancient texts Japan was often referred to as Akitsushima (Land of the Dragonflies), because of their abundance. They were also thought to be the spirits of rice, since they are often to be found hovering above the flooded rice fields. - from the Minneapolis Institute of Arts description